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the bemused mind of a bizkit
terrorised by the imperfections
Created on 2004-02-03 07:44:07 (#2097086), last updated 2006-10-18
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Basic Info| Name: | fredbizkit |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 10-30 |
| Location: | glasgow, United Kingdom |
Biothe past....... is for understanding
the present.... you have to realise
the future..... will grow to show
sincere hearts.... still stay unrewarded
understanding yourself.... still been misunderstood
realising alot of things in other people.... they cant see themselves
having people assuming what my weaknesses are... while they show there strengths only through confidence
feeling less involved...... while other people are at the other side of the barrier feeling fullfilled
having questions the mind cant even conclude an answer to... seeing people who have that answer and
have a way to make me feel unfortunate.
a collective mind..... is stronger than inconsiderate feelings to your values or other peoples.
ignorance is bliss?.... in the past it was something i believed in strongly but after awhile realised it
wasent always the best option to go by because it can come across so strongly as
insincere and i dont feel as comfortable anymore feeling that way.
feeling complete?...... is it really possible to feel complete?. when we feel things are fullfilling for us
then we might assume that we feel complete but things can change so quickly from
happiness to sadness but feeling complete can never be permanent i can say that.
my reactions..... I know that i have reactive personality and i cant help but show that naturally. if
something makes me feel good, if something upsets me or if even anything covers any
part of my emotions I react immediately to it.
the way i react to things is not a surprise for me because its a natural thing for me to do that and its
"honest" for me to do that. I feel i dont always need to justify my reactions because of how immediate they are.
I try to be self-fullfilling aswell as caring towards important people to me but sometimes both arent possible
to create and i guess thats what makes me feel so thoughtful on whats ahead for me. I always seem to have
over-sensitive responses even when people are asking simple questions and only want to perceive me slightly but
i still cant dissagree with how i feel and what i do. even although i can be really opinionated on alot of
things, I also show a defensive side and again its something I naturally happen to show, i could never use my
defensive side as an excuse to protect my feelings, its just something that I immediately react with and feeling
defensive wouldent be possible without the involvement of people because thats what helps me show that side to me. i guess its a common thing to be defensive around certain people but i know its definitely not common to be
in my exact position. the reason why i want to share the way i feel just now is that i feel secure and convinced
in myself to share this and be able to understand it. i know i cant guarantee that you will be able to understand
because we all read things at our own risks. do you understand?. ive realised that i shouldent react right away
with the predictable reaction because its not always right to jump to conclusions without fully known the truth
and im learning to prevent myself from jumping to those conclusions. ive now realised that the most significant things in my life have been the upsetting things because they stand out and they arent easily remembered for me.
they are mostly "memories", i cant see myself been able to reinact those memories because its never easy to make
another memory as sincerely as you did before. when you think about it everything happens for a reason and conclusions are conclusions but, words exist for something whether its favourable or unfavourable towards you
but, words can change things so quickly and our actions are the other key to making things possible. ive realised
so many things in other people good and bad and it can be either offputting or inspiring but whatever it might be,Istill believe in people strongly. im more of a person that analyses what people do rather than see people for
the first time with an inconsiderate view. people need to grow and alot of things help us do that. its also knowing for people to evolve and change what they do. not just through insecurity but there own reasons aswell.
ive learned to accept change because its a part of progression and other peoples choices dont appeal to me on as
much of a personal level. I guess i feel misunderstood by alot of people or unrealistic or underestimated by them but, I know what my capabilitys are and i could say i feel achieved with myself and other times i cant feel that way but, i know understanding and realating with other people makes me feel i have achieved something and thats a good feeling for me. I would like to see myself with my own normally fixed gaze thats more quizical than
intimidating you know?. i wouldent like to see myself as intimidating because i cant really justify that im not if you do think that way. all these feelings just now that i seem to be going through are just a part of self-progression it seems but i guess the rebuilder im looking for is involvement with someone i really like. its hard to think so highly enough of a person to be able to get involved with a person and im no sure yet if i have found that person yet, its more than just a missing void been filled up again, its not just about escaping my old routine and finding something to pass the time its something i want to completely feel fortunate with and feel reallty good to be able to share those special things that come with involvement again. i know its not easy
to find what you want to find and when you find that person you are looking for, it can be hard to come to terms with its a surreal feeling overall to feel attractive. when you feel so unrealistic in yourself and you find that person its hard to realise how realistic the situation actually is and that attraction is actually believeable. i have been looking for that understanding in someone and that surreal feeling of been able to share something really nice with someone. i might have found it i guess.....
is your attraction sympathetic?
i love you all and kiss my ass
the present.... you have to realise
the future..... will grow to show
sincere hearts.... still stay unrewarded
understanding yourself.... still been misunderstood
realising alot of things in other people.... they cant see themselves
having people assuming what my weaknesses are... while they show there strengths only through confidence
feeling less involved...... while other people are at the other side of the barrier feeling fullfilled
having questions the mind cant even conclude an answer to... seeing people who have that answer and
have a way to make me feel unfortunate.
a collective mind..... is stronger than inconsiderate feelings to your values or other peoples.
ignorance is bliss?.... in the past it was something i believed in strongly but after awhile realised it
wasent always the best option to go by because it can come across so strongly as
insincere and i dont feel as comfortable anymore feeling that way.
feeling complete?...... is it really possible to feel complete?. when we feel things are fullfilling for us
then we might assume that we feel complete but things can change so quickly from
happiness to sadness but feeling complete can never be permanent i can say that.
my reactions..... I know that i have reactive personality and i cant help but show that naturally. if
something makes me feel good, if something upsets me or if even anything covers any
part of my emotions I react immediately to it.
the way i react to things is not a surprise for me because its a natural thing for me to do that and its
"honest" for me to do that. I feel i dont always need to justify my reactions because of how immediate they are.
I try to be self-fullfilling aswell as caring towards important people to me but sometimes both arent possible
to create and i guess thats what makes me feel so thoughtful on whats ahead for me. I always seem to have
over-sensitive responses even when people are asking simple questions and only want to perceive me slightly but
i still cant dissagree with how i feel and what i do. even although i can be really opinionated on alot of
things, I also show a defensive side and again its something I naturally happen to show, i could never use my
defensive side as an excuse to protect my feelings, its just something that I immediately react with and feeling
defensive wouldent be possible without the involvement of people because thats what helps me show that side to me. i guess its a common thing to be defensive around certain people but i know its definitely not common to be
in my exact position. the reason why i want to share the way i feel just now is that i feel secure and convinced
in myself to share this and be able to understand it. i know i cant guarantee that you will be able to understand
because we all read things at our own risks. do you understand?. ive realised that i shouldent react right away
with the predictable reaction because its not always right to jump to conclusions without fully known the truth
and im learning to prevent myself from jumping to those conclusions. ive now realised that the most significant things in my life have been the upsetting things because they stand out and they arent easily remembered for me.
they are mostly "memories", i cant see myself been able to reinact those memories because its never easy to make
another memory as sincerely as you did before. when you think about it everything happens for a reason and conclusions are conclusions but, words exist for something whether its favourable or unfavourable towards you
but, words can change things so quickly and our actions are the other key to making things possible. ive realised
so many things in other people good and bad and it can be either offputting or inspiring but whatever it might be,Istill believe in people strongly. im more of a person that analyses what people do rather than see people for
the first time with an inconsiderate view. people need to grow and alot of things help us do that. its also knowing for people to evolve and change what they do. not just through insecurity but there own reasons aswell.
ive learned to accept change because its a part of progression and other peoples choices dont appeal to me on as
much of a personal level. I guess i feel misunderstood by alot of people or unrealistic or underestimated by them but, I know what my capabilitys are and i could say i feel achieved with myself and other times i cant feel that way but, i know understanding and realating with other people makes me feel i have achieved something and thats a good feeling for me. I would like to see myself with my own normally fixed gaze thats more quizical than
intimidating you know?. i wouldent like to see myself as intimidating because i cant really justify that im not if you do think that way. all these feelings just now that i seem to be going through are just a part of self-progression it seems but i guess the rebuilder im looking for is involvement with someone i really like. its hard to think so highly enough of a person to be able to get involved with a person and im no sure yet if i have found that person yet, its more than just a missing void been filled up again, its not just about escaping my old routine and finding something to pass the time its something i want to completely feel fortunate with and feel reallty good to be able to share those special things that come with involvement again. i know its not easy
to find what you want to find and when you find that person you are looking for, it can be hard to come to terms with its a surreal feeling overall to feel attractive. when you feel so unrealistic in yourself and you find that person its hard to realise how realistic the situation actually is and that attraction is actually believeable. i have been looking for that understanding in someone and that surreal feeling of been able to share something really nice with someone. i might have found it i guess.....
is your attraction sympathetic?
i love you all and kiss my ass
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